I haven't struggled with something like this . But knowing your story feels both inspiring and peaceful in some way. I can resonate with the part about feeling "loneliness when someone won't understand a part of you" especially your loved ones, it's easy in the beginning when you kinda don't really care much to be understood (because for me sometimes I want my loved ones to understand me without me saying anything sometimes I think why don't they understand my silence I know it's little much but because I know I understand there's most of the time that's why I want them to understand mine haha...) and but when this feeling remains for a longer period than it becomes a burden and then coping mechanisms begin...
Anyways thank you for sharing this... I very much like the poem and the ending words about loving and understanding yourself first and foremost
Plus I would love to read about your hijab journey...
(This is my first time commenting this long idk but I feel comfortable writing a rant here :))))))
I'm so glad you feel comfortable, I really appreciate your rant and totally get what you mean about wishing they'd understand your silence. insha'Allah I'll write something about my hijab journey though it might take a while, thank you so much for reason, jazzakullai khairan ❤️✨
I hope I'm not too late too comment. This is exactly how I feel and always feel. I just hope that an hijabi out there will come to me and be my friend. Lots of love and hugs❤️
It's never too late to comment Habibti..I pray that Allah SWT places you in a beautiful community and friendship that brings you closer to Him. Thanks sm for reading 💕✨
you wrote this post like you picked out chunks of mementoes and thoughts in my head. Faheezal, how come we have such similar lives. wallahi we could be besties one day. i could list so many relatable parts in this post.
the part where you would sing Christian songs and decorate the classrooms during Christmas, girl i did that too😭
the isolation part
the part where you started to take your deen seriously in sec school, it happened for me like that as well
the loneliness part
and the beginning paragraph. it’s how we both crave for that perfect friendship, where i could have those deep, sweet conversations with people who have a good understanding of me and make me feel seen. it’s something i could give somebody but i haven’t really gotten. sure, my family is here for that & there had been and there’s still those wonderful friendships in my life, but i still crave that kind of friendship and love you talked about.
and girllll, the poetry is beautifully written, mashaallah. so so so so very very relatable
Alhamdululahi it's such a blessing that I found you on this app, so many of your publications felt like they were written write from my heart Habibti. Subhannallahu souls really are like conscripted soldiers. I'm really glad you liked the publication, I pray that we can both learn to be enough for ourselves by Allah's Mercy and to find that deep connection with Him and with those He has gifted us with💕✨ im looking forward to our growing friendship bihidhinillahi.
I haven't struggled with something like this . But knowing your story feels both inspiring and peaceful in some way. I can resonate with the part about feeling "loneliness when someone won't understand a part of you" especially your loved ones, it's easy in the beginning when you kinda don't really care much to be understood (because for me sometimes I want my loved ones to understand me without me saying anything sometimes I think why don't they understand my silence I know it's little much but because I know I understand there's most of the time that's why I want them to understand mine haha...) and but when this feeling remains for a longer period than it becomes a burden and then coping mechanisms begin...
Anyways thank you for sharing this... I very much like the poem and the ending words about loving and understanding yourself first and foremost
Plus I would love to read about your hijab journey...
(This is my first time commenting this long idk but I feel comfortable writing a rant here :))))))
I'm so glad you feel comfortable, I really appreciate your rant and totally get what you mean about wishing they'd understand your silence. insha'Allah I'll write something about my hijab journey though it might take a while, thank you so much for reason, jazzakullai khairan ❤️✨
I hope I'm not too late too comment. This is exactly how I feel and always feel. I just hope that an hijabi out there will come to me and be my friend. Lots of love and hugs❤️
It's never too late to comment Habibti..I pray that Allah SWT places you in a beautiful community and friendship that brings you closer to Him. Thanks sm for reading 💕✨
Amiin. You're welcome habibti❤️.
you wrote this post like you picked out chunks of mementoes and thoughts in my head. Faheezal, how come we have such similar lives. wallahi we could be besties one day. i could list so many relatable parts in this post.
the part where you would sing Christian songs and decorate the classrooms during Christmas, girl i did that too😭
the isolation part
the part where you started to take your deen seriously in sec school, it happened for me like that as well
the loneliness part
and the beginning paragraph. it’s how we both crave for that perfect friendship, where i could have those deep, sweet conversations with people who have a good understanding of me and make me feel seen. it’s something i could give somebody but i haven’t really gotten. sure, my family is here for that & there had been and there’s still those wonderful friendships in my life, but i still crave that kind of friendship and love you talked about.
and girllll, the poetry is beautifully written, mashaallah. so so so so very very relatable
Alhamdululahi it's such a blessing that I found you on this app, so many of your publications felt like they were written write from my heart Habibti. Subhannallahu souls really are like conscripted soldiers. I'm really glad you liked the publication, I pray that we can both learn to be enough for ourselves by Allah's Mercy and to find that deep connection with Him and with those He has gifted us with💕✨ im looking forward to our growing friendship bihidhinillahi.
i’m also giddy with excitement for our ‘growing friendship’
May Allah SWT spare our lives to experience it
Ameen✨💕
Emotional and inspiring story..
Jazzakullai Khairan, thanks so much for reading, glad you liked it!
Jazzakullai Khairan Habibti 🤍 I pray that Allah grants you people who never make u feel like you have isolate yourself. Live from me to you too💕
Ameen!